I have had many traumatic events happen in my life. From a controlling, verbally and physically abusive mother. To a first husband who physically, mentally and sexually abused me then a second husband who did the same. I have had doctors make totally wrong diagnosis's and give incorrect treatment. I had a complete nervous breakdown in 2001 which put me in hospital. Then I watched my 2nd husband die in front of myself and my little girl.
All these events left with a panic anxiety disorder, agoraphobia and necrophobia. I have had counselling on and off for 20 years. Since 2001 I have had counselling continually. I tried Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, ACT which is based on mindfulness skills. I read every book I could on how to deal with panic anxiety and my phobia's. I read new age books, anything I could get my hands on that would hopefully get rid of the panic attacks and the awful feelings of anxiety I had. All these things would work for a little while but none of them addressed the issues which drove my anxiety. My last counsellor informed me that she had done all she could do. That I was in the"too hard" basket and not to come back again. For several weeks I felt completely depressed and overwhelmed by feelings of desolation. I have never been one to give up which is probably whey even with my sever problem I still managed to function as long as I was within my comfort zone and had all my security blankets in place. This wasn't good enough for me and I did not accept her diagnosis. So I began to do research and came across hypnotherapy. The advertisement said it could help with anxiety. At this point I had nothing to lose.
After hypnosis sessions with Brad, I no longer wake every morning to re live in my head all the abuse and negative comments. It used to be like a movie that never switched off, just played over and over again. I could distract it for a little while bit it would always creep back in when I wasn't looking and then the anxiety and fear and panic would be overwhelming. All those feelings and emotions have gone. I get up and every day is new.
I used to have issues going to bed for feelings of anxiety. I used to feel strange in my head. I would stay up until I couldn't stay awake then I would go to bed. All that has gone.
I feel different in myself. I am gradually regaining my life. There are many small things I can now do which used to be insurmountable. For the first time in 14 years I went swimming in the chlorinated pool. This might seem a small thing but for me it was a huge achievement.
Life used to be hard work, now it is just full of possibilities. One of those is that I have decided to learn to play the piano.
I cannot thank Brad enough for giving me back my life and by doing that changing the lives of those around me. No matter how you try not to let your problems impact on others, they do. My family can see that I am different.
I listen to my CD's everyday. I use my 20 knot shoe lace. I put in practice all Brad has given me, and I wear my bracelet which says "Every Day In Every Way. I'm Getting Better And Better". For the first time in 16 years since 1994 when I was first diagnosed with a panic anxiety disorder I know that I am getting better and better and I am 100% sure that one day, and not so long in the future I will be completely better. I have Brad to thank for this. A long way there were a few bumps but he and I never gave up.
Hypnotherapy addressed the cause of my anxiety and eradicated it at the subconscious level, All the other therapies I tried only taught me how to try and control consciously my anxiety and panic. I never knew when or where it would raise its ugly head. Now because the underlying problems have been dealt with there are no triggers. Once again I thank Brad and Hypnotherapy
Thank you.